Wednesday's Window Into My World/Whine

Well, I'm sick I have the flu...I'm so miserable, and in so much pain...I really should have called off work, but I'm too stupid and loyal... so the shift starts off crazy, I have this new patient who's a screamer, I'm like oh crap I don't have the energy for this. I was in her room 100 times it felt like in the first hour of my shift. Finally she quiets down, and we're so relieved, I call to make sure her dinner is ordered, and then I was sitting outside her room gossiping w/ a couple of the nurses I work w/ when the daughter walks in, walks right back and w/ this panicked look on her face and says WHATS WRONG W/ HER???? The nurse and I look at each other and are like what do you mean, we were just in there and she was fine. I'm thinking daughter is overreacting so I stayed at the station while the nurse went in to check on her, and I hear her saying the patients name over and over. Then I knew something was wrong so I went and grabbed a machine to get her vitals, I walk in and the lady is grey and in obvious resp. distress. So I grabbed the phone and call the RAT team (rapid action team)which is a group of ICU nurses, Resp. therapist, and nursing supervisor who we call when someone is about to code. The lady is a DNR so we wouldn't code her, but you still treat! We throw a 02 mask on her, I take her oxygen its 50 something (100 is what you want, anything under 90 is bad)...I tell you what though, nothing like a little adrenaline to make you forget you're sick! So we work on the lady for a while, it's apparent there's really nothing we can do to save her, we transfer her off to a tele floor for closer monitoring, we're thinking she probably threw a clot the way she went so fast.

So I struggle threw the rest of my shift and finally get to the end. One of the other nurses asks me to walk her patient, he was a fresh surgery and he had been refusing to walk...so I say sure, I'm always willing to help out even if it's not my patient, so I go in and tell him his Dr. wants him to walk and he starts freaking out on me...he's like where's my nurse, I said she's in another patients room, she asked me to come walk you for her...so he's yelling about walking, and I'm not really listening...I pull his blankets off and he yells at me not to mess them up...I said well you gotta take them off to walk, in sortof a joking voice trying to lighten him up, and he LOSES IT...he's like are you getting smart w/ me, I was like NO, I must have had the most OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS look on my face, and am in total disbelief that this dude is FREAKING out over a little walk, he continues to go off about I better not be i'm too young to get an attitude w/ him blah blah blah... so I'm ignoring him go ahead and scream, I finally get him up, yelling at me the whole time, he walks a few feet in the hallway, being a jerk the whole time, get back to his room, he keeps yelling saying pick my feet up, do this do that...finally he goes WTH are you doing, I laughed and said listening to you yell at me for some reason, which of course he didn't like that very much, so I tucked his nasty ass into bed and left he's like what's your name, I said Michelle, what's your name, he's like YOU KNOW MY NAME, I said no I don't you're not my patient, he's like YOU DONT NEED TO KNOW MY NAME...he had an outpatient surgery, but refused to go home cuz he doesn't have anyone to take care of him, I can see why! So he asks to talk to his nurse, and apparently tells her he is going to talk to my boss to have me fired @@, so moral of the story call off work when your sick and don't do anyone any favors lol
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just venting

Today wasn't my most favorite day in the world...it started out kinda crappy waiting w/ Isaiah at the bus stop...for those who don't know, my middle child (who is autistic) has been the brunt of bullying by the neighborhood children. I wait w/ him at the bus stop to make sure they aren't evil to him. The little boy across the street is still nice to Isaiah, but the rest of them are mean little spawns of satan...so this morning the little boy from across the street starts coming over by Isaiah and one of the kids tells him DONT GO BY ISAIAH HE"S MEAN...I wanted to strangle the kid, but I resisted the urge. WTF, my son is standing there minding his own business but yeah HES mean @@@@@@@@@@@@@@...so needless to say I was all upset, and couldn't go back to sleep after he got on the bus. Which I NEEDED to get some sleep cuz I worked tonight...

Which leads me in to work....

I was having a PRETTY good night (for those who don't really know me, I am a CNA at a hospital, I float around to different floors), Tonight, I was on the med/surg floor which is a hard floor, but tonight wasn't bad, I only had 9 patients which isn't horrible, there were 3 CNA's plus a light duty aide (she hurt herself) who was suppossed to help out by doing our vitals, water, garbages, and other light duty tasks...plus there were student nurses there, who were helping take care of one of my really hard patients, so all in all the night was going smoothly...

UNTIL (ok obviously I wasn't going to brag about what an easy night I had right??? lol)...

little Miss Light Duty, comes over to me and this other girl and tells us she's not pulling our garbages and that our rooms aren't stocked and their a mess...now this girl has the same job title that we do, and has NO business to be telling ANY of us what to do, so that kind of irked me...but I let it slide, I went and pulled my garbages, since she said she wasn't going to...I did rounds on my rooms, everything was fine, great no big deal. So about a 1/2 hour later she comes BACK over to me and this other CNA and tells us AGAIN that we need to do our rooms. We're like THEY"VE BEEN DONE...she's like, well they are a mess...and starts going off...now, I don't do drama, and if you yell at me, I won't yell back, I will laugh at you...it's just my nature...and no matter how hard you try you CAN"T get me riled up enough to yell at you, I just don't do it...I guess this was frustrating her, I could tell how bad she was trying to get a rise out of me...I simply said...look I did my job to my satisfaction, if it's not up to your standards than by all means, you go do it...OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH she was MAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDD...she's like FINE I'LL LET YOUR SUPERVISOR KNOW THAT...I said please do, and started laughing......so on my last rounds I made sure I took out my handy dandy camera phone and took pictures of all my rooms, including my EMPTY garbage cans, and my fully stocked linens...to PROVE that my work, HAD in fact been done, and she was just on some ego trip and was angry she couldn't get a rise out of me...she's lucky I don't turn her in for code of conduct, because they don't allow that kind of drama at my place of employment!!!

Now even though you can't get a rise out of me on the outside, I am a very sensitive person on the inside...so of course I'm pretty upset about it...I'm not one of them people who can just blow it off on the inside...so I guess I'll be up all night long.

:::::::::sigh::::::::::: Hopefully this little vent will help!

wednesday whine

OMG so today has been a HORRIBLE freaking day!!!!!!!!!! FIRST I get in a fight w/ one of my best friends THEN...I decide I'm not going out in this weather so I call off, can't get my supervisor on the phone (not unusual) so I leave a message like always saying I can't come in...on account of the weather. So 3:30 comes and supervisor calls me asking me where I'm at, I said I called off...she's like well no one knew so you need to come in or it's a no call no show...WTF??????? So I call up bawling to talk to my supervisor as I'm TRYING to drive...honestly I was so upset, I THINK I called the wrong supervisor...which the one I think I called is a bitch and this one was really nice so I don't know...I was like I CALLED OFF WHY AM I GETTING NO CALL NO SHOW, I"M TRYING TO COME IN BUT I DON'T THINK I CAN MAKE IT WHICH IS WHY I CALLED OFF!!!!!!! I'm hysterical, she puts me on hold to find out what the hell is going on!!! Gets back on says no it would just be a call off but please try and get here they need you...so I'm bawling and driving and sliding all over the damn place and fishtailing and 180ing it, you name it. I almost turned back around sooooo many times..., one point I called back to tell her I was making it in, and the car coming twords me lost control and there was almost a 3 car accident (including me) So I'm SCREAMING, and freaking. I don't drive in this shit, I save my call off's for this VERY reason!!! I can't believe I finally made it in...but I'm here AND THEN I GET HERE AND THERE'S 2 OTHER CNA''S ON THE FREAKING FLOOR, yeah it was nice to have me but htey didn't NEED me, the new staffing grids go in to effect in a couple days and they won't ever even call for 3 CNA's so anyway, I was freaking PISSEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...I'm still PISSED!!!!!! Just pray it's a better drive home than it was coming in, although the ambulance drivers are saying it's bad UGH!!!!!

I wish children came with instruction books

I don't know where to start, I'm just going to ramble for a minute because I don't know what else to do:::sigh:::: When Isaiah was in the special ed preschool they recommended he be put in general ed classes w/ special ed help. I always hoped and worried we made the right choice...and figured time would tell. Last year he did great...but it was kindergarten when everyone is friends. This year I ask him every day who he plays w/ at recess and he always says no one. It breaks my heart that my little boy has no friends. Maybe I should have him back in a special ed school. He's so in between, he just doesn't fit in anywhere. There's nothing in the world worse than being lonley, having no one to talk to, to relate to, to be friends with. Everyone should have at least ONE best friend in the world. I just so sad for my little guy. I just want him to have one friend :*(